Sitting in a hospital reveals how little is in my control.
Most of my motherly nature longs to fix every ailment my children endure and wipe out every negative influence surrounding them. But I can’t. In this age, it is impossible.
But I am not without hope.
While I cannot control an infection attacking my child or what a relative might inappropriately say around our family, I can trust in a God who covers my children’s hearts constantly. But, that doesn’t mean I sit back and take no action in my parenting or care for others. There exists a thin space between trust while acting responsibly and attempting to over-control a situation.
“Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.” – Philippians 2:12-13 (ESV)
Any goodness I show is all God acting through me. God issues a call to do what we can, but keep our hearts and thoughts open to Him in any and all decisions.
“Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to act.” – Proverbs 3:27 (NIV)
“Wise people think before they act; fools don’t—and even brag about their foolishness.” – Proverbs 13:16 (NLT)
While I sit here in this hospital, serving my son to help him heal however I can, I fight these negative thoughts swarming my heart about the “what-ifs” and sorrow and uncertainty. I pray to remain open to the possibilities God gives to serve others:
- a sincere thank you to hospital staff loving wholly on my son,
- a prayer spoken to a father waiting for his baby to have heart surgery,
- eyes open for me to see God constantly working in severe circumstances.
And, oh, how He does work. He offers joy through a sleepy, bed-ridden boy reaching his arms out hug his momma’s neck. He inspires gratitude through hard-working staff working 12- or 30-hour shifts (really, 30!). He shows His provision through just the right words at just the right time, leading to honest discussions and needed treatments. And, yes, He heals when it’s His will.
Because of one act, we have the constant opportunity to remain open to His goodness filling all our broken places. “Consequently, just as one trespass resulted in condemnation for all people, so also one righteous act resulted in justification and life for all people.” (Romans 5:18, NIV)
I pray to continue through each day with eyes and heart open to God’s presence – both subtle and obvious. Open to the hope only He can provide.
How can you remain open to God’s love and provision for your family?
Author bio: Caroline is a wife, mother of a beautiful and charming toddler son, avid reader, and writer. She is honored to write with Today’s Housewife. You can also find Caroline at her personal blog (Under God’s Mighty Hand) and on Twitter.